I can’t get that song out of my head and I’ve probably listened to it 30 times in the last couple of days. The funny thing, is that each time I listen to it and every time I hear it in my mind, I feel the same sense of excitement. I want to jump up and down and spin in circles! I can feel the words in every fiber of my being and everything inside of me agrees, I was meant to live for so much more. Somewhere along the way I started believing something different.
I’ve really struggled with getting older. I don’t like the number that is fast approaching and I feel like I’ve wasted so much life. I know I can’t go backwards, even though for years I told my kids I was counting birthdays backwards. If I truly am meant for so much more, then I don’t want to waste any more time fighting the inevitable. I’m going to embrace getting older and embrace the experiences of my life and the wisdom that comes with age. It’s easy when we are young to say age is just a number, but if I can keep in mind that we aren’t promised a single day, then age really is just a number. I am truly grateful to be where I am in my life and don’t want to take another breath for granted. I think I’m finally ready to truly live.
Sometimes my mind feels like a mosh pit of thoughts. Ideas bounce around, randomly bumping into each other with no direction or real purpose. Sometimes they bump into a solid wall of reality but still feel random. Some of my thoughts propel me forward with revelations about who I am or who I want to be. Some of them ground me and then I am no longer an island in my mind but part of the bigger universe outside of my own head.
Today I am lost in thoughts of what is really important. The little things are important in their own time for sure, but sometimes they are simply just little things.
It’s the big things that take up heart space that really matter.
Make sure to tell your family (or the people you consider your family) how much you love them every day and how much they mean to you, even when they are a huge pain in the butt.
Make sure your true friends know how much they mean in your life. No one is a mind-reader so don’t expect them to be.
The things that really matter aren’t even things at all. They are all the people that live outside our heads and we don’t know how long we have with any of them so make sure they know they matter.