Sometimes we have to choose who we are going to be and just ignore the world around us. Life doesn’t always go the way we expect it too and the only guarantee is that something will change.
It’s ironic actually that the things we chase after are usually within our grasp and we just won’t acknowledge them.
We want to be happy but we won’t let go of the things or the people we need to let go of.
We want to be healthy but we don’t want to change our eating habits or get up and exercise.
We want to be financially secure but we don’t want to really do the work that’s required.
There are exceptions; however, when we choose to avoid what needs to be done they’re called excuses. A friend of mine told me that everything in a statement before the “but” isn’t true. We either want what’s on the left or we want to make excuses. Change is hard and sometimes even makes you cry. I challenge you though to get off your ‘but’ and make the changes that need to be made, with no more excuses.
It’s Monday. A new day, a new week and for some of us a new start. Having to let go of things we love really sucks. There is no other way to put it. Even so, I woke up this morning and told myself that I’m not too old. I believe that. I told myself that I can do whatever I truly believe I can. I believe that too. I told myself that I have to let go of the past. I do believe that, but the problem is I really don’t want to. Letting go of things that matter is never easy and feels like your heart is being ripped into a million little pieces and every little piece hurts as much as the whole. The logical, reasonable part of my brain tells me that I have to keep going and move forward and that I have to let go. I don’t want to let go. I want to keep the good memories and make more of them. Letting go feels like I don’t care even though I know that’s the same reason it hurts so much.
I have to let go. I have to put on my big girl panties and make the decision that today I will be better than I was yesterday. I can look back on life with regret for the things that went wrong or I can look back on everything that went right. I can drown myself in the mistakes I made because I can’t fix them or I can learn from them so I don’t make them again. I can let the pain of letting go keep me from moving forward or I can let the pain of letting go push me harder.
I don’t want to wake up tomorrow with new regrets so I will move forward and I will make the choices that will get me where I want to go. I will say thank you for the amazing journey and for helping me see that I am strong enough and smart enough and brave enough.